Today I am beginning a new journey by starting this course provided by The Daily Om: 8 Weeks to Total Body Love
I tend to compare my body to others. I am 45 years old and have been depressed for a really long time. At 30, depression, anxiety, stress (as result from divorce) caused me to lose an excessive amount of weight. However, I ate healthy and exercised in response, but another unhealthy relationship influenced me 5 years later to do the opposite– eat unhealthy and stop exercise. I didn’t even love and accept my body “at that perfect size.” Now, I realize that unhealthy relationship ended 7 years ago! And I am the heaviest I have ever been…And I really despise myself. I have all sorts of tapes inside my head that tell me I’m ugly because I’m fat. That I don’t deserve to be loved because I’m fat. That I can’t dress cute because I’m fat.
I know where those tapes come from. And I also know what perpetuates them! I really hope I get insight, healing and help to erase those negative tapes and love and accept my body right where I am.